Monthly Archives: October 2009

students, workshop and about pity

In a lecture today, i wanted to write a hate-letter/post to my classmates. I wanted so badly that i even started the letter in my head, however, i decided to ignore them, they are not going to be in my blog.

I have attended a workshop where the presenter happily said that he used to be a hacker, and for our good, he will teach us a technique that is supposed to help us in our thesis.

So I got excited, for my disappointment his tip was nothing more than playing with the address bar in a web page to get more files in the web server hosting the thesis papers. I should have known there was something wrong in his pretension.

There was a peice of conversation in a Japanese drama i wanted to write about. every time i say i will write a decent post about it, and the conversation never left my head. I am writing it here.

The story is based on real story of a girl named Aya who had a disease when she was 15, the disease was incurable and it developed till she died in 25. in these years Aya was fighting to live a normal life, in episode 6 which was about the looks of pity she used to get from people around her, the father was complaining to his wife that he could not have sold the cheese he was making if not for the buyer’s compassion (because of his daughter disease). So the mother started:

-هل تعني أنها (الموافقة) للشفقة؟ حتى وإن كان الأمر كذلك.. ليس هناك مشكلة في الشفقة؟

– ماذا؟

– الإشفاق هو للتخفيف عن الآخرين من أحزانهم وآلامهم، وأن تتعامل مع أحزانهم كأنها أحزانك، أليس هذا صحيح؟

– أجل

– يجب أن يحصل هذا بعد أن أصيبت “أيا” بهذا المرض… لقد حظيت بأنتباه الكثيرين لها.. على أمل أنها لن تضعف أمام هذه النظرات .. آمل أن تكون باستطاعتها تخطي هذه المحنة.  لكن … من بين هذه النظرات، هناك من يهتمون بها أيضا. آمل أن تفهم ذلك أيضا . أعتقد أنه ليس بالشيء السهل.

(الأب يبكي)

– عزيزي؟

– لا بأس بذلك، إنها أبنتنا. سوف تقوم بتخطي هذه المحنة بالتأكيد، إنها فتاة طيبة تفهم مشاعر الآخرين.

بقي هذا الحوار فترة طويلة يشغل تفكيري. المسلسل رائع وفيه الكثير من المواقف التي ينبغي على المرء أن يتوقف عندها ليفكر في ما أنعم الله عليه. هذا الموقف الذي يتحدث عن الشفقة غيّر انطباعي عن هذه النظرات، لطالما كنت أعتبر أن نظرات الشفقة تنبع عن قلة ذوق أو شماته خفيه أو حتى عن سطحية وضحالة تفكير، في كلام الأم ترى أنها تتحدث من منظور آخر يحترم الشخص المشفِق ويقدر شفقته على أساس أنها تصدر من وحدة المجتمع وتكاتفه مع المُشفق عليه.  ترى الأب أيضا يقتنع بكلام الأم ويتمنى لو كان باستطاعته أن يكون في مثل قوتها وأن تتفهم ابنته نظرات الآخرين لها.

So, I encourage everyone to watch this series, here is a clip of the conversation above (find it @ 6:00), and the diaries of Aya (the real diary she wrote) can be found here. So sad this is not the complete diary, but it gives you an idea about the real girl, and how is reality more sad than the drama.


feel like posting

Zeynep

The photo is taken by Esra Eesra, from usefilm.com , from time to time I go there to look up new pictures.
I have always thought I am good in reading faces, this one made me feel good, the lady is really satisfied and happy.

I am listening to Sheirin, her voice is deep and the music and lyrics are always new, unique in a way.

My lecture notes is opened to copy them into a word document, because my handwriting is bad and not readable for revision later, my problem is that the notes are mainly equations, and though I am fast in editing equations in word, I am not motivated. Feel like making up an excuse to get busy but not actually study.

–update (17 Oct) aaaaaaaaaa the file got corrupted :””(

Backing up my phone content, starting this week my phone gave me a blinking sign of a message in the upper right corner, there is plenty of free space in my phone, still I am going to clean it up. I have found the messages I saved since I started work hidden in phone memory, was happy because that was more than 600 messages that once I thought I have lost forever.

This week I got my first parking ticket, I have always used that spot as a parking for my car since I started studying. A little talk with someone who I thought was a policeman and the ticket got cancelled. It was an achievement.

Going back to my notes. Bye