I just broke my laptop and i’m feeling good. Because what i did was something i wanted to do long time back and never had the courage to do but today.

It was all because the space bar stopped working, i thought it was because of the juice drops my niece spilled. However, i succeeded in bringing the space back to functioning for 2 days. After which the space never worked again no matter how i clean or support it. Life is a nightmare without the space bar, i am used to hit space to scroll items in google reader and other pages. Typing was extremely difficult – a workaround was copying a space from anywhere and pasting it after each word, or clicking the space on the on-screen keyboard, both were hectic. So i started my long delayed plan to clean my keyboard. (referring to the post how to clean your laptop economically. My that was real long). I loved the sound of keys popping from the board. But then i was taken by the moment and started to unscrew every single screw, i tried to open it and seperate the pieces but couldn’t, so i stopped.
Laptop worked after screwing the screws but it’s monitor was dead, don’t know what went wrong, hehe, but i’m not am bothered, it’s not that i hate it, on the contrast, i love it with all its malfunctions.

I think it can be repaired, by some qualified personnel of course. I’m just a bit surprised that am not feeling guilty.

اغنية تامر حسني وعلاء عبد الخالق “رسمي.. فهمي.. نظمي” تذكرني بالفنانين في الكولاج.

وجدت ضجة حول مقطع نقله كاتب كلمات الأغنية من اغنية للطفي بوشناق مع خطأ في النقل. وكان الهجوم موجها لتامر مع أن علاء عبد الخالق (وهو اسم قديم له أغاني جميلة في بداية التسعينات أذكر منها داري، بحبك باستمرار، سامحي) يشاركه في الغناء ورغم أن كلمات الأغنية كتبها محمد رحيم.

so what? why making big deal of such a trivial issue. it is just a song, you either like it or not. shallow people.

In a lecture today, i wanted to write a hate-letter/post to my classmates. I wanted so badly that i even started the letter in my head, however, i decided to ignore them, they are not going to be in my blog.

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I have attended a workshop where the presenter happily said that he used to be a hacker, and for our good, he will teach us a technique that is supposed to help us in our thesis.

So I got excited, for my disappointment his tip was nothing more than playing with the address bar in a web page to get more files in the web server hosting the thesis papers. I should have known there was something wrong in his pretension.

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There was a peice of conversation in a Japanese drama i wanted to write about. every time i say i will write a decent post about it, and the conversation never left my head. I am writing it here.

The story is based on real story of a girl named Aya who had a disease when she was 15, the disease was incurable and it developed till she died in 25. in these years Aya was fighting to live a normal life, in episode 6 which was about the looks of pity she used to get from people around her, the father was complaining to his wife that he could not have sold the cheese he was making if not for the buyer’s compassion (because of his daughter disease). So the mother started:

-هل تعني أنها (الموافقة) للشفقة؟ حتى وإن كان الأمر كذلك.. ليس هناك مشكلة في الشفقة؟

- ماذا؟

- الإشفاق هو للتخفيف عن الآخرين من أحزانهم وآلامهم، وأن تتعامل مع أحزانهم كأنها أحزانك، أليس هذا صحيح؟

- أجل

- يجب أن يحصل هذا بعد أن أصيبت “أيا” بهذا المرض… لقد حظيت بأنتباه الكثيرين لها.. على أمل أنها لن تضعف أمام هذه النظرات .. آمل أن تكون باستطاعتها تخطي هذه المحنة.  لكن … من بين هذه النظرات، هناك من يهتمون بها أيضا. آمل أن تفهم ذلك أيضا . أعتقد أنه ليس بالشيء السهل.

(الأب يبكي)

- عزيزي؟

- لا بأس بذلك، إنها أبنتنا. سوف تقوم بتخطي هذه المحنة بالتأكيد، إنها فتاة طيبة تفهم مشاعر الآخرين.

بقي هذا الحوار فترة طويلة يشغل تفكيري. المسلسل رائع وفيه الكثير من المواقف التي ينبغي على المرء أن يتوقف عندها ليفكر في ما أنعم الله عليه. هذا الموقف الذي يتحدث عن الشفقة غيّر انطباعي عن هذه النظرات، لطالما كنت أعتبر أن نظرات الشفقة تنبع عن قلة ذوق أو شماته خفيه أو حتى عن سطحية وضحالة تفكير، في كلام الأم ترى أنها تتحدث من منظور آخر يحترم الشخص المشفِق ويقدر شفقته على أساس أنها تصدر من وحدة المجتمع وتكاتفه مع المُشفق عليه.  ترى الأب أيضا يقتنع بكلام الأم ويتمنى لو كان باستطاعته أن يكون في مثل قوتها وأن تتفهم ابنته نظرات الآخرين لها.

So, I encourage everyone to watch this series, here is a clip of the conversation above (find it @ 6:00), and the diaries of Aya (the real diary she wrote) can be found here. So sad this is not the complete diary, but it gives you an idea about the real girl, and how is reality more sad than the drama.

The photo is taken by Esra Eesra, from usefilm.com , from time to time I go there to look up new pictures.
I have always thought I am good in reading faces, this one made me feel good, the lady is really satisfied and happy.

I am listening to Sheirin, her voice is deep and the music and lyrics are always new, unique in a way.

My lecture notes is opened to copy them into a word document, because my handwriting is bad and not readable for revision later, my problem is that the notes are mainly equations, and though I am fast in editing equations in word, I am not motivated. Feel like making up an excuse to get busy but not actually study.

–update (17 Oct) aaaaaaaaaa the file got corrupted :””(

Backing up my phone content, starting this week my phone gave me a blinking sign of a message in the upper right corner, there is plenty of free space in my phone, still I am going to clean it up. I have found the messages I saved since I started work hidden in phone memory, was happy because that was more than 600 messages that once I thought I have lost forever.

This week I got my first parking ticket, I have always used that spot as a parking for my car since I started studying. A little talk with someone who I thought was a policeman and the ticket got cancelled. It was an achievement.

Going back to my notes. Bye

ما سبب امتناعنا في رمضان عن أكل البيض والفول والبطاط المقلي والفاصوليا الحمراء؟

This is what we eat normally in dinner before and after Ramadhan, so what happens? Suddenly we think it is more like Ramadhan to eat sambosa, kofta and spring rolls. And another list of pastries that are not that much of digestible.

Why don’t we buy Lebanese bread and why do we start to make our own bread? Why? Seriously, do you like it more? I don’t. I haven’t enjoyed any of the food in Ramadhan. I was eating just to break my fast and to keep going, and to not throw the exsessive food in the trash. sad. and yes, why do you cook extra amounts? could hunger be the reason?

* Pictures are from flickr and google images search, with slight modifications, click on the pictures for source.

Hi,

I am usually against sharing videos in blogs, but I LOVED this one i want to keep it in my blog.

The girl is so cute, i can’t find out from her YouTube channel, twitter or her blog what is her nationality, most likely she is Korean, I love Korean girls. She is so funny I love her for tagging her video these words “ i’m  so  silly  but  its  all  cool  funny  cute … … she  rocks!“

I liked the Typical Annoyed Teenager Expression @ 0:43. What is your favourite expression?

secret: when i returned from thailand last month, i went to a doctor to check h1n1.
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In my home, no single day passes without mentioning the disease and the latest numbers. We admit we are sacred, not for us but for the kids and elderies.

Then someone says it’s normal it’s like normal flu. Ok this part is known, but the other‎ part this person intentionally ignores is, it kills those with weak immune system.

Maybe it’s a propaganda, maybe it’s real. In all cases, we are in panic. نسأل الله سبحانه ان يجيرنا ويعافينا

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On another note, OmanTV sucks. But c’mon people, change the channel or better switch off TV.
-
Amna

لا يمكنني التمييز بين ما يحق لي الإطلاع عليه وما لا تجوز معرفته في بيئة العمل.. الجميع يتحدث ثم ينهي كلامه ب بيني وبينك. والغريب أني أسمع نفس الموضوع من أكثر من شخص ينهي كلامه بتلك العبارة. كلهم ثرثارون لا يمكن الوثوق بهم

لا يمكن العمل في بيئة لا تعلم أين وجهتها ولا خططها المستقبلية التي يتم طبخها في إجتماعات إدارية مغلقة يتوجب بعدها على الموظف أن ينفذ قراراتها دون أن يكون له رأي في صلاحيتها أو عدمه. أسوأ من ذلك هو حين تفقد نفسك الثقة في قدرتك على تحليل موقف الإداريين وافتراضك حسن النية فيهم و في بعد تقديرهم، لا أعلم بعد إن كان يحق للموظف مطالبته بمعرفة قرارات المدراء. ربما كل ما على هذا الموظف القيام به هو تأدية عمله والرجوع في نهاية اليوم إلى بيته قرير العين أن أنعمت عليه جهة العمل بهذه الوظيفة

Dear Readers,

Yours truly is writing to apologies for breaking her promise. This post is to make up for that:

The month of Final exams and extra load at work is over. Final exams were so and so but what’s funny was suddenly every one at work was concerned with how well I performed in my exam, so they traded the usual morning greetings with “how was your exam?”.  Ok fine thanks for asking, but that’s none of anyone’s business.

At work they wanted us to work more hours to complete prolonged project for nothing in return. This is what I call IRRATIONAL management.

Speaking of which, I discovered that I am a manger by instinct; I had an exam in management, I solved some questions without studying them, and I managed to solve the exam on time, while the rest of shallow students were begging for extra time, it was disgusting seeing that interaction between the damn-hateful instructor and those who are supposed to be engineers.

I had good time watching the videos at despair.com, my favorite ones are those of teamwork. That definitely have nothing to relate to my work conditions, of course we are having endless arguments with pessimists all the time, and the employees don’t stop complaining, but that’s another issue.

Amna

my mind is occupied. Have nothing from work to talk about . But…
A tip for all ladies with high heals. Never take off your shoes while driving. They may move to under the brakes then u’ll have an accident.
just in case it happens, don’t panic and try to kick them away.
The same applies for water bottles, just don’t keep them in the car… Wish you all safe drives